Listening to God
One of the hardest truths I ever had to face was the fact that I didn’t know myself. When that revelation came through my immediate response was, How do I get to know myself? Where would I even begin? I was so confused about everything at that point in my life. Nothing seemed to make sense anymore. It was all quite foggy. Because at the time I was so deeply entrenched in my ego, I resisted at every turn to face the truth of myself.
If I admitted what I did know about myself to myself, would I even want to know the parts of me that I didn't know? As I pondered on that, God sent me the first of many clues along my awakening path, yoga. I remember thinking, “I don’t want to do yoga, I am not even flexible, and I don’t want a yoga booty.” My thoughts were trying to trick me out of trusting and following God’s steps. The closer I got to my truth the less control my ego had over my life, and that is problematic for my ego.
It was at my first yoga class that I was able to surrender enough to allow the Holy Spirit to take hold of me, just long enough to whisper to me, “Yoga is your destiny.” The voice was so clear, I remember opening my eye in savasana to look around just to see if a real person had said that. I felt my heart sink into my chest softly, in a comforting way. It was as if a weight had been lifted. My purpose was presented.
Before that day I had never even considered teaching yoga. I mean it was my first class, but after I heard that voice I was sure that yoga was going to be a big part of my life. For 4 months I sat on the idea of going to a YTT and getting my certified to teach. I already had an established career, how would I ever make a living out of doing something I had never done before?
Then one magical day in September my best friend sent me a YTT email that she received. I heard God say, “This is the one.” I was scared sh**less. I enrolled before my mind had a chance to stop me. Yoga helped me understand the importance of being present. It became my time to bring my awareness to what was happening right now. I knew that, if I could somehow be strong enough to get present and stay there the more I would know about my self.
My curiosity was awakened I wanted to know even more so I searched around for ways to become more self aware. The first modality that I used was Myers-Briggs. That was cool, but it was too general. Then I started to get into astrology. Astrology resonated, but it was deeper than that. I was getting warmer. Then I received the revelation of the Human Design. I fell deep in love with this modality as I uncovered hidden truths about myself. I felt a deep passion rise up in my heart and God said, “You’re on the right path.”
I combined my understanding of how my human was constructed, with my understanding of movement of energy through yoga and I tapped in. The more tapped in I became the more I could hear and feel God’s spirit within me growing, protecting, guiding, and loving. My life was being transformed right before my eyes, all because I decided to listen to God, and not the thoughts that told me to stay put.
When we take the time to listen to what God has to say about our life, our gifts are revealed, our loads are lightened, and life becomes a little bit more clear. Allow God to guide you. Surrender to His plan even if you can’t see where that guidance is taking you. I am living proof that following God will never lead you astray. God always knows even when you don’t. The only thing that you have to show up with is faith in that promise.
Trust.
