When you hear the call, will you answer?

Ok now what? You heard the call. You feel it overtaking you. That incessant desire to show up, to take your place in the world. Now will you heed the call and step into action? When I answered the call to become a healer, I had no idea what the Divine had in store for me. I could feel it in the depths of my soul that the world needed my help. I kept hearing a voice in my head on repeat saying, “I can’t keep living like this” . I left everything behind to move forward to pursue my own self healing. This was no longer about other people, this was about saving my soul. I had no other intentions or plans other that to heal my mind, body, and spirit, from years of trauma and abuse. I had finally made myself a priority in my own life. I felt like I would die if I kept down the road I was on. The funny thing is at the time I had no idea what I was doing. I just listened in to my intuition to surrender, and let Spirit lead my life. I had done a shit job up until that point, lol! I was living a life that was the antithesis of a healthy existence for a spirit like me.

I was awake. Now what? My realizations came after much resistance. My mind wanted to protect me from the discomfort that I would see in making this humongous course correction. It created all of these scary ass scenarios that would paralyze me in fear for a time hindering my process. Setting off all kinds of triggers. I would hear shit like, “Yoga isn’t sustainable”, “You are irresponsible.”, “How dare you pick you?”, “You are selfish”. All of that kept me from making strides forward, because our favorite place to be as humans is our comfort zone. I was so fucking comfortable in a state of pain, that I didn’t even realize that I was in pain. As crazy as that may sound that is the state that most humans are in. Had I not discovered mindfulness through a consistent yoga practice, I would’ve stayed in that comfortable state of pain for much longer, maybe even forever. Now that shit is scary.

This sick world that we live in is in need of healing. I am not going to lie, when I first started on this path I thought it was my job to heal others. I was wrong. I don’t have the power to do other people’s healing work for them. I only have my experiences so that I am a reference for those on a healing path. I hold space. That is what it boils down to, staying awake inside of the nightmare long enough to make change. So here we go!