Breaking Cycles: ADDICTION

I used to have a drinking problem. Most days when I left work I would stop to get a drink to take the edge off. I was in constant torment. Drinking among other things, gave me temporary relief. I had no idea how to regulate my emotions without using something. So I began to abuse the substance that was never made to replace God’s love.

My DUI changed things for me. I had to go to AA. The foundation of AA is a faith based model. Faith is necessary when dealing with addiction.

Addiction is a naturally occurring event in every human. The source of addiction can be found in the spirit. We were created to be addicts so that we can receive God’s love, let it flow through us without ceasing, and never tire from it.

God’s love can be felt without taking a form, but God does give us love in form. Through relationships, food, plants, etc. When we experience something or someone that makes us feel as if we are feeling God’s love, we immediately want to experience it again.

We start abusing that substance, because we use it as a replacement for God’s unconditional love. There is nothing in the material world that can replace that.

That “something” or “someone” will become our idol and will take precedent over the important things in our life. Most of all, it gets in the way of our relationship with God.

That is why we cannot mentally break addictions to things, we must allow supernatural power step in, and overpower what has taken over our spirit.

I cut back on my drinking little by little. Prayer became a routine habit in my life. God wants us to be full of the Spirit, not full of spirits. Now, when I want to run to a substance, I run to God.

After 5 years of hard work, I learned how to regulate my nervous system alcohol free. I utilize the plant medicine of the cannabis plant to help me in times where surrendering to God is too hard, and my ego is being an ass.

Now instead of nights pounding a bottle of wine, I drink a can of CBD water, read some of God’s word, and hand the worries of the day to Him before my head hits the pillow.

I fill myself up on God’s love and I let it flow through me. I am still an addict , but now God is my vice. Cycle broken. Spirit full.