The Power of Prayer

God brought me to my knees in May of 2019. As you know I quit my career making $80k in 2018, to follow God’s plan for my life. By January 2019 I was split from my ex-husband and I was living off of the last bits of the retirement that I pulled. My last payment from that came through in April of 2019. I had nothing. I was $120K in debt from living a life full of worldly pleasures, and gross over spending on luxury goods. Vanity and the money chase ruled my life. I was caught up in the lie that things, trips, money, power success was the key to peace and security. 

In May my ex cleared out all of the accounts. He came over that day and handed me $600, and said “Good luck. Yoga is not sustainable.” As I received email after email saying accounts were shutting down, my heart dropped into my stomach. I thought to myself wtf am I gonna do? I only make like two dollars teaching yoga? Shit it’s not sustainable. I was SPENT you hear me! I could not believe the level of betrayal I was experiencing. I was completely dependent on him and that money. What was I going to do God? 

I came upstairs and dropped to my knees, and began PRAYING! All I could say was help me God. I could not stop the tears from falling down my cheeks. God had taken everything from me. My job, my marriage, and I even had to sell both of my homes. 

God had humbled me. I surrendered. I handed it all over to Him that day. My finances, my heart, my daughter. EVERYTHING!

I had done all that I could do and had failed miserably at it. I took a nap right there on my living room floor. I heard God say I’ll take care of you. That next day I woke up with $3600 in my bank account. Praise God. I immediately took it out and opened my own account. I sold my homes for the exact amount of debt that I had, which gave me a clean slate. A year after that day I had grossed $99k, without spending a single day working. No unemployment, no stimulus, no retirements, and no PPP loans. Just money God provided through big opportunities. 

I pray for the life that God wants for me now, not the life that I want for myself. I ask God to align my wants and desires with His, so that I may receive everything that I pray for. That is how prayer works. You will not receive what you want no matter how hard you pray if it is not in God’s plan for your life. 

You see I had sh** twisted. I thought it was my husband or my job that provided me security all of these years, when in fact it was God Almighty that has sustained me. He kept me the entire pandemic while I healed my deep inner hurt and trauma, while I figured out how to be a single mother, and while I figure out entrepreneurship. He kept me when everyone I depended on abandoned me. He keeps me everyday of my life. I AM HIS. 

I say all of this as a testimony of what it looks like when you trust in the one that made you, instead of trusting the world around you. I never have to worry about money or anything for that matter because my father owns all of this shit! Because I am his child obedient child I will inherit it all. All I have to do is ask and receive. 

My father is God and God is WEALTH. 

I AM NOT WEALTHY BECAUSE I HAVE MONEY. I HAVE MONEY BECAUSE I AM WEALTHY.

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