Limiting Beliefs

I was reading my old journal entry from 2019. I had just received a healing download about letting go of the thought that I was a hoe. For years I believed that about myself. I was feeling it more heavily those days because I was divorcing due to infidelity. The thing was I was not a hoe because I committed adultery, I was a hoe because I gave someone my power for nothing in return. Feeling horrible about myself because of something someone else had believed about me. They believed or wanted me to believe that I was a hoe. The cruel voice little voice that I heard in my head was not even my own. The voice was my mother’s manipulation to keep me from being hoe, the manipulation of men that didn’t deserve my presence, but wanted it for themselves, and the manipulation of fake friends that couldn’t hold a candle to me on my worst day.

I was” sleeping on myself.” That terminology is derived from the idea that you are not literally asleep, but unaware or you lack consciousness. I was sleeping and while I was sleeping the enemy was attacking. They were waiting to catch me slipping. So that they could plant small voices inside my head that whisper to me in my weak moments and convince me that they were bigger or stronger than me. They became limiting beliefs. The enemy is always at work, because they are awake and see you when you can’t see yourself, they are a mirror. We are all mirrors of each other. God created us this way on purpose. 

That is why lying is in the top ten (commandments that is) for sin. It is the distortion and manipulation of God’s truth. So, instead of mirroring to you the truth your enemies are like funhouse mirrors, they mirror to you manipulation of the truth. They lie and distort the truth to benefit themselves and use what they really see. 

I had let these demons convince me that my high vibrational, sexual energy, my connection to Almighty God was something to be ashamed of. WOW! My fucking mind was blown! I had let these people brainwash me out of my own power, so that they could manipulate it, and use it to their own benefit. I let these low vibrational creatures trick me out of my connection to my creator. I let them make a HOE outta me! Talk about disappointment.

I found myself fulfilling the sordid imaginations of others people’s mind, not those of my own. Not my own. I was too scared to take my power back. Fearful that if I did, I would lose the acceptance of people that never really accepted me in the first place. Interesting how that goes isn’t it?

I think, “Should my mother had been honest about what she was seeing and empowered it, should those men had stepped their game up before approaching me, should those bitches been in their power and told the truth about me, how much different would my life had been?”

Then I realize, they were only a delay on my journey nothing more. They kept me from who I was, yet, alas the truth always prevails. Joke’s on them, I figured out who the fuck I was anyway. God’s plan always comes to fruition.

God sent people to be honest with me. He sent mirrors to reflect the truth I just had to stand in front of them. I surrounded myself with crystal clear reflections of those that love me, instead of temporary projections of those that didn’t. Those mirrors revealed the woman I am now. 

Getting my power back was me realizing my sexual energy was my power, and I could wield it any way that I chose. I choose to use my sexual energy to connect with God, and co-create the life that was purposed for me. Nothing more nothing less. 

I say all of this to say it is time for us to be step into our own power. It’s time to be courageous. Drop those limiting beliefs, they weren’t yours to begin with. Time to tell the truth and reflect the beauty that surrounds you. Wake up, stand courageous.

God’s best life is waiting on you!